Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Day 14


Miami was just what I needed. The right combination of cocktails and sunny weather kept my mind as far away from X as it could be. I even tried to scope out potential cute boys, without success (damn the bar X set with his devastatingly perfect features)! I can't promise that I was completely mature, as I was sure to fill in X's roommate (one of our shared friends) on all the elaborate details of my trip and concoct frequent social media status updates for X to see. I suppose I shouldn't have been surprised when Tuesday morning upon my return, an IM from X pops up on my computer. This is the first time we've made contact since the big day. I have to say though, it wasn't as weird as I thought it would be. Sure it was an impersonal instant message where he asked me questions about unemotional topics and I didn't reciprocate with any questions, but still, I was ok. He was himself, a good guy. I only got the urge to kick him in the balls twice for still putting me in this position. This sounds like major progress.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Day Ten

The past few days I've tried a lot of creative cleansing. I painted not only my own apartment, but the studio and office of a friend, and I tried my hand at a few other creative outlets. Hasn't been working. So, I spent all my frequent flier miles and booked a trip to the ultimate get-over-him spot: South Beach Miami. The last 48 hours has been spent trying to squeeze in every connection possible to have a kick ass trip based around the beach and the Superbowl. Screw traditional means of coping, MIAMI here we come!

Monday, February 1, 2010

Day Seven


The mornings are the hardest part. Half because X is scattered in my dreams where the world is back to normal and half because it is the part of the day when I feel the most alone. I chanted to myself "I love my new life...I love my new life..." while cleaning up around my apartment and making a list of things to occupy myself with. It is still proving to be really miserable.

Today's cleanse will be focusing on my career and setting new goals. After I get in a pilates session (courtesy of pilates set dvds that someone gifted our weekend birthday girl). Deep breath. New month, new week, new perspective.